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SHADES OF FEAR

KNOW YOUR FEAR

When we were born, we were fearless or say completely free of this emotion. Which as we grow increases in quantity and quality.

We can observe a new born having a single expression when he or she stares at you, a blank stare only. After few weeks we see that a simple and very eager eye movement to know what is happening around. Only after the infant recognizes the mother does it feel emotions.

It is the mother’s fear for the baby, to protect her from danger, which the child will learn, after seeing the mother’s expressions to danger. The more often the mother is in fear, the child will be in fear too. Then, slowly the emotion fear grips into the child. First it will be the fear of fall, fear of pain.

Slowly, the child grows as a toddler, the fear of people with bad expressions on the faces increases their fear. As the toddler grows up, the fear of dark places, expressions on people who scare them for their own pleasure, fear of being lonely, fear of being left alone by family members will develop his fears.

Gradually, the fear of other things engrosses him. “What if”, comes into play. The doubt in his thoughts, “What if” this is not done as it is supposed to be? The fear of not impressing his friends and peer group will engross the adolescents. The fear of not fulfilling the expectations of parents, friends and relatives will enter their minds as they cross the threshold of adolescence. Fear of not being accepted by certain group of friends, relatives will drag them into things that will hold them in fear.

By this time they are completely into a materialistic world where everything needs to be acquired, gained and expected desires to be met. The fear of losing anything desired by them will become a thing of fear. By the time he becomes an adult, the fear of many thing surround him that will not allow him to think clearly. By the time he realizes the role of fear, he is settled with it, he learns to live with it. He naturally transfers his fears to his or her children from infancy, so the cycle continues.

But alas, had he known all theses stages, realized how it works, he could have limited his fears, used fear for his good, faced fear as any other expression or emotion. it would have been a different story. Things he fears will vanish gradually when he will see the consequences once he out grows his fear.

Then he realizes that, the fear of GOD is the ultimate useful fear that will keep him in limits, not out do things, not to go beyond his human nature, the unnatural way. In their old age very few realize this truth, they will go back to the new born stage where the mind was without fear but the only the eternal bliss. Then he will reach a stage where is his prepared for death without any fear and ultimately the fear of everything is gone and your soul is in peace.


Mind and body

Do you know, who am I, came the voice within me. Then I heard a second voice replying from the sound box in my left side, saying, “come on’ I know that you are just the fissure in the frontal brain strongly protected by the frontal skull bone.

I knew you when you were just developing, just becoming pink with my supply and started working. I was already matured enough to observe you. The first voice gave a grunt, and said aloud” though I know you only for a short period, I know that , you are too silly to start trembling, I observe you when you start jumping and palpating while she talks to him. So, remember that I am the one who control you from going beyond your normal rate. I also know you, when you freeze when someone rebukes her or enfolds her in his arms. But, let me tell you that I confess, I enjoy life better with you and your elderly company.


FOOLING ABOUT.

I was lost in his thoughts that I forgot to think about necessary things that are not related to him. I saw him in everything and everywhere I go, he is in my thoughts.

How I wished to be in his thoughts but the fact that he does not think about me brought me always a shock.

I accidently met him but I did not recognize him, being in my thoughts. My thinking about him changed him to a true gentleman though he is not.

His looks made him innocent though his are the most mischievous one, out of lots.

His posture looks great though he stands last in all smarts.

Though I find him unworthy, when I judge him in a crowd but still cherish him as a special one in a serene world.

I call him a fool at times and a cool on many times.

But, I just realized how cool I am, though, I am being a fool just for him.



GIRLY

I considered my self lucky for not being judged by anyone as a beauty.

But, I realized that I should not worry for being a beautiful girl but being a girl alone.

I felt, I am admired by the people around me, but getting to know individuals by their looks worked a very myself to be lucky, not to be judged by anyone as a beauty in a crowd.

I noticed a man helpless on bed, so, I talked to him friendly often .But as days passed by and as I passed by him, where he was lying on his bed after being operated. His expression changed day after day.

The day after he was operated he looked so pale and helpless that any kind human with humanity would extend his hand for help. But, as days passed by his suffering got passed him. But I felt his mental part is suffering adversely.

When I went to console him, he took it more playfully that he ignored my talk rather than my lips while I was talking. I felt he was engrossed in other thoughts that could no longer be ignored.

My ignorance to judge a individual have led me to such a situation that I dare not ignore my conscience than others.

When I walked away from him, hoping never to meet him, he turned out to me as a stranger but his expressionless eyes told me and taught me lot more things.

TRUTH OF LIFE

I started walking all alone along the narrow path in the fields. I was still halfway to my home when I started thinking unwanted things that a teenager need not think. I suddenly heard my name being called and I was lost so deeply in my thoughts and myself.

Yet, I turned back expecting someone but to my astonishment the thin air alone was whistling its way. The far stretched fields restricting the dust air brings across the fields; as are my dusty thoughts being restricted by my own conscious mind.

I continued my walk on a very narrow path that I urged for a good and faithful company that anyone alone would desire for.

This time I felt someone yelling at me loudly with the full youthfulness. This time, I did not hesitate to look back, expecting a couple with their children following. I was disappointed to see nothing but my imagination going in vain.

I still continued until I heard a feeble cry trying to attract my attention. I did not turn back o see this time. But, a small crowd carrying the body of a old lady passed by me while I stood shocked silently realizing the fact, way God has taught me the truth of life and Death.