FIRST STEP

   An achiever discovered some bad news one day which shattered his life and drove him towards worst time of his life. From there how did he cope-up with challenges is something to look forward. The journey defines the meaning of his life.

  This is the chapter wise novel towards his journey. At the end of every chapter, there are Writer’s notes which provides some perspective which lead character is not being able to discover yet. Will he discover it? Only time will tell.

     It was a normal day. Nothing special happened. Everyone was sitting together at Anant’s home after completing work. Yash was also there, alone with his 5 close friends. Muktesh started some slow music, trying to help him calm from struggle within. Yash was lying down beside him. Yagnesh and Hiren were talking with Anant regarding some work as working was joy for them. Suddenly Yash covered his face with Muktesh’s legs as if he was in sleep. After some moments, Muktesh felt something different and as he checked, Yash was crying. He doesn’t understand what’s going on. Meanwhile everyone has noticed Yash sobbing and staring each other’s face trying to figure out what happened.

     Yash was a complicated guy. He came from middle class family with ambition to provide something to the world which will make difference in people’s life. He wants to achieve so many things but doesn’t want to compromise his morals. In 8 years’ life in Ahmedabad, He goes through many ups and down like everyone else but that hasn’t affected his values. As much angry he is on people, blaming for his life’s complicated state. He still wants them to be happy. Perhaps he knows that like everyone else, His character is grayish and its shades are still stranger to him.

    Yagnesh, Hiren, Anant, Muktesh and Pooja everyone was trying their best to calm Yash down. But Yash was nowhere near to stop his sobbing. After some hours of tears, Yash calm down and they took him outside on ride to share some tea and laughs. It was 3.10 AM and they find one Tea stall. They hang-out there and came back at home around 4.30 AM. Guess what! Yash started crying again but this time, everyone was able to make him sleep.

    Yagnesh, Hiren, Anant, Muktesh and Pooja everyone was trying their best to calm Yash down. But Yash was nowhere near to stop his sobbing. After some hours of tears, Yash calm down and they took him outside on ride to share some tea and laughs. It was 3.10 AM and they find one Tea stall. They hang-out there and came back at home around 4.30 AM. Guess what! Yash started crying again but this time, everyone was able to make him sleep.

    Suddenly, Muktesh asked Yash to consider meeting psychiatrist. Yash was shocked and started giving excuses about yesterday’s incident like this kind of things happened in everyone’s life and etc. Muktesh surrendered (not actually although) and told yash if he doesn’t find it necessary, they won’t go anywhere. After some 2–3 minutes, he proposed that there is a good psychiatrist near falafel who is available in SAL Hospital, let’s go there and check what he has to say. Exploration doesn’t hurt and who knows if this might be a new experience of life. Yash resisted at first and Muktesh didn’t utter a word as if he is silently saying Yash to think about it more. After a while, Yash said let’s go and see what happens. They went SAL Hospital but Doctor wasn’t there. Muktesh asked for Doctor’s number from staff saying it’s an emergency and Yash was laughing inside. Doctor was nearby as visiting faculty at another Hospital and both went there.

     Doctor was on a different level of Chill (as if he had marijuana). He welcomed both and said, “Tell me what brings you here.” Muktesh Told Doctor about Yesterday’s incident and then Doctor told Muktesh to wait outside. Yash started describing every incident of past 6–7 months which increased his disturbance. Loss of work in his co-own company, Bad relationship with family especially with sister with whom he was very close, Guilty of not being able to contribute in team, Disappointment with self for destroying every intimate relationships he had with people, Hatred for himself regarding not being able to fulfill people’s expectations, Confusion about what to do in life and so on. In conversation with Doctor, he also revealed 5 year old incident when he was living with 6 people in 2 BHK and over a small misunderstanding everyone stopped talking with him. He lived in a home full day where there are 6 other people and he was being isolated. Yash told doctor about crying alone many times so that no one knows he is weak. Doctor listened to him carefully and took some written test to identify the problem. After giving some thought and meaningful conversations, Doctor diagnosed Yash with severe depression and anxiety. Doctor suggested starting medicine for six months and getting counseling after a month. Yash opposed medicine and told that he would like to go for counseling therapy instead because he desired to figure out himself and understood that this is the time to have some outside help. Doctor tried to explain importance of medicine but in this depression, Yash showed some confidence to rely on self rather than chemicals.

     After leaving hospital, Yash and Muktesh went for Home in car as both are roommates. Yash was silent and Muktesh gave him some space. There were chains of thoughts running in different directions in Yash’s mind. He was thinking about being his childhood where he was the throughout topper from class 1 to 12. He completed his 12th science with 90% above marks. He remembered being confused about taking admission in selecting best colleges because he had that many options in this competitive world. As the meaning of his name, He was glory to his family being throughout topper. Yash was observing his past 8 years life in which he came to severe depression from a child who has a bright future.

     In this never ending marathon, Yash and Muktesh reached at office where they found Hiren, Yagnesh, Anant and Pooja.

(To be continued…)

P.S. Writer’s note:

- In this whole charade, Yash was not being able to see that he is not alone here even having so much troubles. Most of us are so much involved in achieving something we don’t have, we just can’t see and appreciate what we are having. From the mental state of Yash, It seems that yash has gone far away from even seeing he is not alone no matter how shattered his life is.

- In this whole charade, Yash was not being able to see that he is not alone here even having so much troubles. Most of us are so much involved in achieving something we don’t have, we just can’t see and appreciate what we are having. From the mental state of Yash, It seems that yash has gone far away from even seeing he is not alone no matter how shattered his life is.

- There is a small line between thinking and overthinking. If people like Yash won’t be aware while crossing it; no matter how smart they were in academics, they will always end up with sorrow.

 

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